identity crisis.

okay, this may sound cliched; but these days i'm feeling emo.

i dont see my self enjoying myself with the A05 clique. sometimes when they tell funny jokes, deep inside, the joke is funny, but i cant seem to force a laugh. as in, yeah, they ARE nice people. but i dont know why, something inside me is telling me to mellow down.

its keeping my mouth shut. i cant laugh hysterically like i did back then in secondary days. i cant seem to think of any lame jokes to tell anyone nowadays. i've become boring. i prefer to stick with my bestie huiminang. just sitting in the canteen, and talking shit the whole day.

maybe i've been too active these few years that i'm so worn out, damn tired. maybe this enthusiasm was just a subconscious front i've been putting up. or maybe i just want to have a break from all the lame-ness/enthusiasm/rah-ing and just be serious for some time.

thankful for my understanding friends, I am.
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